Lenten fast?

At the beginning of Lent I will usually plan to cut out sweets or crisps or some form of food, or I will try to commit myself to doing for a certain amount of time or not doing something for the 40 days. This year I’m thinking differently.

After problems with bingeing and fasting last summer I don’t think cutting food out is a good idea (especially as I have a tendency to gorge myself on whatever I have in the house before I start it!). I found putting too much pressure on myself was a problem with the photo365 challenge this year so I don’t want to say I’ll read my bible for a certain amount of time each day or read a set number of chapters.

Faith

Instead I’m going to try to read a bit of a Christian book everyday. Some days it may be half an hour, some days it may be a quick 5 minutes but I think this will help me. I’ve struggled to get any reasonable quiet time routine going this year so maybe this less structured idea will help me.

 

photo credit: Leonard John Matthews via photopin cc

Hello March!

What happened to winter?

I think it may have been playing the USA and Canada for far too long this year. We seem to have lurched from a wet and windy autumn to a wet and windy spring without seeing winter in between. I can count on one hand the number of times I have had to de-ice the car this year. However, I have lost count of the number of days the monkeygirl has been anxious about indoor playtime (Asperger’s and noise sensitivity) due to the rain! I have never known our little corner of Essex so wet! The local drains have failed miserably to cope with the volume of rain leading to huge puddles on some of the roads which take days to disappear and the town’s green spaces have been turned into muddy bogs.

I am sure the persistent greyness and dampness hasn’t helped my mood this year. I’m never normally affected by S.A.D. too much, I love a cool, crisp winter morning with the sparkly frost creating beautiful patterns on all sorts of surfaces, ok, so I hate de-icing the car as much as the next person but I’m not a fan of heat and humidity. This winter I’ve struggled to brighten up at times more than I would have anticipated even accounting for my present need for medication.

The summer is my least favourite season, I just don’t deal with heat well. I love spring; the colours, brightness and new life.

Hyacinths

This year we have white snowdrops, purple croci, bright yellow daffodils, pale yellow primroses and pink hyacinths all flowering simultaneously in the churchyard. It is wonderful to walk through. In the monkeygirl’s opinion there is only one thing lacking so far… pink blossom! Thank goodness for a shrub close to school which seems to have little pink flowers all year! I cannot recall seeing all these different plants flowering at the same time before. It’s beautiful.

How is it the end of February?

This year is flying by. I can’t believe it’s the last week in February already!

February has been a write off. I didn’t manage to shake the virus off properly at the start of the month and it’s still making its presence felt having left me with breathlessness which requires an inhaler at times. Almost everything has fallen by the wayside in the last couple of weeks. It’s only this week that I’ve been able to stay on top of the basic housework without relying on the monkeyfather to help me, and that’s partly thanks to a wonderful, restful few days staying with my lovely mother.

I haven’t spent quality time with the monkeygranny since last summer, it was great to be back at home and able to switch off a bit. It was brilliant to see the wonderful relationship she has with my two monkeys as well.

My photography has fallen by the wayside this month. I took a lot of photos while I was up north, but on the whole it was just using the automatic settings and hoping for the best rather than trying to set anything up properly. I think I may have put too much pressure on myself at the start of the year with the photo365 challenge, I don’t think I realised quite how precariously my depression was balancing. I’m going to try to keep taking photos, but if I don’t take them, or I don’t post them on here then so be it.

In other notes, the poll for the names of my Lego couple closed with the decision that they are called Bob and Martha. I will try to include a photo of one of both of them once a week or so (but I’m not going to commit to anything).

I hope to be around more in the coming days but, again, no promises.

Time flies…

It’s been a busy few weeks here in the monkey house. I’ve still been taking my photos but thanks to a combination of my husband going away for work, the usual winter viruses and me heading down another low meant that blogging went further down my list than it possibly should have done. I’m not saying I feel obliged to blog, but I do find even a quick post helps get my thoughts straight and helps me feel brighter.

Mr and Mrs

I will however update my Lego people poll, there was a tie for first place between Ed & Alice and Martha & Bob. I’m going to start another poll between those pairs of names and if there is still a tie next weekend I’ll ask one of the children to choose.

365:2 Goals

365-2 GoalsThe prompt for this was supposed to make you think about your goals for completing photo365, however I’ve already written about that, so I’ve taken a photo of another one of my goals (or at least one stage of a goal).

This is my desk/bureau… at least somewhere under there is my bureau… I haven’t been able to use it properly for months. I want to get it cleared off, everything on it in it’s own place and  then have my own space for crafting once again. It initially got in this state when the monkeyfather left something in front of it which meant I couldn’t use it, as time went on more things got put there and while it was inaccessible I didn’t have the motivation to clear it.

With my depression at little more at bay (thanks to a change in my medication I’m feeling lighter and less weighed down than I have in years), I suddenly have the impetus to get the house in a better order. The dining table was cleared yesterday, while dinner is cooking I’m planning to attack the area around the printer, I will get this house looking organised (I nearly said tidy… but I do have two children!). Since we moved here almost 8 years ago there has always been at least one area (often many more) that is cluttered or piled up with things; I want this to change, I want to be proud of my house not ashamed.